Mahirap sa Babae yung...

sa dinami-dami ng mga babaeng nakasalimuha ko, madami akong napasin as well as mga natutunan sa kanila. Napansin ko, madami satin ang may mga problema dahil wala tayo ng mga sumunod.... eto ang ilan sa mga nais kong i-share sa inyo. Naway kapulutan ng aral.....

Mahirap sa Babae yung...

Hindi kayang tumayo sa sariling paa.
Kahit paano, dapat self-sustaining. Hindi pabigat sa pamilya o sa asawa.  Old fashioned
parin ako sobra. For me, dapat mas malaki ang sweldo ng lalaki.. pride nila yun as provider..
so let them be men!  Our role as women is to support and co-create with them... NOT compete with them.
As for us women, dapat kahit paano, may pambili parin tyo nung mga gusto
natin o may pambili tyo nung mga bagay na makakadevelop ng katauhan natin. We should continually invest in ourselves.


Walang Pinag-aralan.
Hindi naman kailangang sobrang talino or what pero at least dapat may natapos para hindi tyo basta basta naloloko.
Bukod pa roon, Iba parin kapag madami tayong alam gawin, madaming options. At ang babaeng well schooled makes the best
moms... because moms are the best teachers. Pano mo tuturuan ang anak mo kung wala kang alam?


Walang Respeto sa sarili.
Pano tayo gagalangin ng lalake kung sarili natin hindi natin kayang galangin? Konting kalabit lang
bibigay na agad? Tapos kung kani-kanino nagpapagamit! ay!! kadire! Sad to say, pero maraming ganun ngayon.
Sa huli, yung mga babaeng matino parin at pinipili nila, at HINDI yung mga pakawala.
We must know our limits. Lalo na sa sex. Hindi lang naman dapat puro  love kapag sex ang pinag-uusapan. Responsibility din dapat. Dapat ireserve natin ang sacred ritual na ito doon sa taong worthy ng pagkatao natin. At kapag may asawa na kyo, dapat may time talaga para sa sex kse role nating mga babae yun. Kahit months after manganak, kahit anong hirap pa ang dinanas sa giving birth... kailangan nating isipin ang sexual needs ng ating partner.


Walang strong foundation ng Values and Morals.

Very vital talaga ang training sa bahay... ang training ng magulang kse sila talaga ang main influence natin. Pero kapag nasa tamang edad na tayo at may tamang wisyo, dapat alam na natin ang tama sa mali. Hindi porke uso, sabay nalang tayo sa agos. Hindi lahat ng nauuso ay tama. Matutuo dapat tayong mag-isip.  Dapat marunong tayong manindigan... at dapat may panghawakan tayong pilisopiya sa buhay....Yun din kse ang ipapamana natin sating mga magiging supling. Para sakin, ibang-iba parin ang pagiging traditional. Ganun kse ako pinalaki at sa experience ko, pinakabest parin yun. Pilipino tayo e! 

Masyadong Insecure.

Lahat naman tyo may sari-sariling insecurities, pero dapat alam natin kung pano ito ihandle. A confident woman is an attractive woman! Alam natin dapat kung san ilulugar ang pagseselos.. tipong ipunin lahat lahat ng pagka-irita at panlalait in a day then tell your partner na nagseselos ka! Ganun! Sabihin sa pinakamaayos, no drama way... parang matter of fact lang. Tapos, TAPOS na!! Wag ulitin! Wag ungkatin! PERIOD! Hindi nakikinig ang mga lalake kapag nakikita nilang mukha tyong gago. Trust me. Been there, done that! Kung mahal ka talaga ng partner mo, he will find a way to make you feel secure. Kapag wala syang ginawa about it, then he isn't worthy. 

Hindi alam ang gusto nya sa buhay.

Ang hirap nun! Seriously. Yung tipong nageexist ka nalang ng walang purpose sa buhay! Parang halaman... buti pa nga halaman e! Dapat alam mo talaga kung ano gusto mo. Dapat alam mo kung ano yung mga bagay na magpapasaya sayo! Kaya nga tayo may free-will e...the greatest gift from GOD! We should use it wisely. Reminder: TAO ka!

Hindi marunong sa gawaing bahay.

Very important ito para satin! Very basic! No matter how busy we are with our chosen careers, dapat we should still have time to be homemakers. Keeping the family together should be our top priority. It is our duty to keep the kids well fed, clean and the husband happy at all times. Family first lagi lagi!

~mae~
the old-fashioned girl from the future

A Promise Unfulfilled

In those times when my biological parents were too busy fighting over petty things and have no time to talk and work things out, these two people in the photo took the role as my parents to assure me of the love and care I deserve.

I may say that my lolo and lola were the ones who really took care of me when I was young. I remember waking up seeing my lola praying the rosary in front of the altar. We always went to Cubao..Rustan's and Alimall were our favorite spots. She loves buying shoes, Chanel perfumes and lipsticks hihihi

I remember seeing her seated on her rocking chair each night while we all watched tv. And at times when I felt scared or under the weather, she'd embrace me and sing me a song with words that go like, " sleep my darling baby..."

My lolo on the other hand was just the sweetest man I've ever known. He's quite authoritative, firm and a family man. He loved my lola so much. I often see them holding hands and cuddling. I still believe how ideal of a couple they are. He wasn't very vocal with things, but he always made sure I was showered with a lot of hugs and kisses. I still remember on how he would gently stroke my forehead to check on my fever. The countless trips to the grocery where he would let me pick my confection of choice (I often picked M n M peanut). The times when he would  wake me up for my 7am class... prepare hot water for my bath, cook bacon, sausages and eggs for breakfast. My lolo remains to be my ideal man up to this day. I always aim to look for a piece of my lolo in the guys I loved. Someday, I'd like to devote my life to a man similar to him. A man who would stand by me through thick and thin.. a conservative man who value his morals and knows how to keep his family intact.

i'll always be Lolo's little girl

No wonder I was so devastated when he died in 1997.. only a year before I was to graduate from high school. On his death bed his last words to me were, "Magbabait ka...alagaan mo si lola" I had to hold the tears from my eyes since I didn't want to show my weakness. I wasn't prepared then. I never thought death would actually come. I just remember answering, "Lagi naman po ako mabait." These words from him became a very solid foundation for me and served as my compass right after he left. I always did my best to keep my morals intact and do things that he can be proud of. Even during the times when I feel I'm being pushed around and rejected, I had to endure them for I knew I only had to do what I think was noble. I may have lost my one and only protector in 1997, but I know that I will meet another one soon. I'm sure that my lolo is looking down at me from heaven. In times when I'm ill, he'd still show  up in my dreams and also during the time when I was to break-up with my then relationship, he appeared in my dream looking so happy. Perhaps it was a sign that I wasn't really meant for that, and I was reserved for someone way way better.

A few days ago, I learned that my lola just got out of the hospital and that she's now too weak and is on a wheelchair. I was devastated with the news and got even more upset when my dad won't even allow me to at least visit her because he's afraid that his gf (i can't really call her his wife..it's just improper) will surely get furious when she sees me. It seems that her insecurity is still crippling her up to this day. For the longest time, I have been banned in my own house. My dad kept on hiding me, meeting up with me in secret because of this pathetic fear. He doesn't even have the balls to tell the world that I'm his legitimate daugther..that I too deserve to see my grandma. I'm hurting because I couldn't fulfill my promise to my lolo that I would take care of my lola at her old age.

I dunno how much time I got left. As much as I would like to at least embrace her one last time.. or just talk with her, thank her for being there when I needed love the most.. or take a photo with her, ONE LAST TIME.....

All I know is that things are really looking dim right now. I feel so upset with my dad for not being man enough to do what is right.

Do I always have to get used to being rejected and kept hidden from the ones I love? Sometimes I feel as if people are happier without me.. so I always have to be sent away..... =(

Remember When....

Sept 21, 2009.....

Thank you for setting me free!

Hmmmmm

Sometimes I wish I were more assertive.... or meaner perhaps.....
..... or more confrontational.....

.....never really got used to getting angry, I think it's a waste of time and  a clear indication of not having self control..

hmmmmmmmm